Let us write an essay or many, essays Options

[Rocky]

I feel like writing. My next post will probably be too long and nobody will read it.


I encourage all to do the same.


What is on your mind ? No subject is unwelcome.


I'd appreciate if all cutesey worthless posts were put elsewhere.

[Epic]

I was 17, looking down at myself wearing all black, chains, black fingernails, makeup and industrial boots. I was cutting myself on a regular basis by then and dying my hair very often for the same fucking reason. It finally clicked. Looking different was only just a way to easily “smell your own” so that you could find someone and maybe not be alone. Even with someone you’d still be just as angsty.

So that day I threw all that shit away, I shaved my head, popped in a copy of SLC Punk into the VCR. Punk died in the late 80’s and this goth bullshit was just a feeble attempt at throwing off the arms of social norm oppression (but put on yourself expectations and oppressions you wouldn’t believe). Even goth’s have a class system.

It’s about who you are, the way you live, and the things that you are willing to fight for. I had picked up the name Epic by then but I had never really lived up to it. I was different but I was conforming one way or another so I finally decided to just live, and fuck the labels. I knew I was better than everyone else so I was going to act like it. I’ll spare you all the details of what I did then.

This is what it means to live as a punk today. The only true punks from the 80’s are still over in Germany occupying a few remaining abandoned buildings and sit down when they pee (guys too). I’ve read books and essays about “modern punk” and its all just a throwback to the way it was and how today’s youth will never be able to leave like that. Modern punk is about confidence. It’s the confidence to be different, whether you look like it or not. It’s being confident enough to get in a fight, maybe even if you get your ass kicked, and standing up afterward and still calling him a fag (or a neophyte if you want funny looks).

Being punk has nothing to do with anarchy because anarchy died. Any way you slice it, the reliance upon anarchy brought on the death of punk. So today’s punk movement is about living within these walls. There is system, there is structure, but a punk lives inside of this while doing as much damage as he can. Call me a jack in the box if you want, but our lives are framed but we can still throw some paint on the canvas.

So fuck you and your “oy!” It’s just a borrowed Yiddish term anyway.